I have always had a problem with my anxiety. Since a child. I am now 48 years old and instead of it getting better it seems that it is getting worse. When I'm driving I have panic attacks out of nowhere. You can imagine it is horrible! Then along with my lovely anxiety comes depression, bipolar depression and ptsd. I have been in numerous abusive relationships. Some where i was the abuser and some where i was abused. I have dealt with abuse my whole life. Mental abuse, Verbal abuse, and Physical abuse. Now because of everything i have been through; I have horrible PTSD, nightmares, along with sleep disorders. I have a phobia of windows. I think that is the worst at night. At night i get so stressed that if i go into anxiety attacks I will literally bite my finger tips until they bleed. Crazy! Right? Yea i feel the same way but at the time it is just something I can't control or even realize that I am doing. I have nerve damage in my legs, from a car accident I was in, in 2004. So some days at random times I can't walk. I literally am paralyzed from the waist down. It is extremely painful. That pain never goes away.
Just a little bit about what i feel and deal with everyday. Having mental health issues are so real. Everyday you never know what you will be dealing with but it is always something. That's why people with mental health issues are the strongest people in the world!
