Today I made a very hard decision, to let go of anything that isn't for me or of the Lord. I had to sacrifice my relationship with my mom, my oldest son, and 3 of my grand kids. The decision didn't come easy, but it definitely was a long time coming. My mom whom I love to death, but for some strange reason she just doesn't like me. I have tried to make her happy, I have tried to be the best daughter I could be, but she just can't be pleased. My mom has done a lot for me, from beyond helping me raise my kids, to just always being there when I needed someone. There are so many things that I am blessed to have my mom for but there are also trauma situations that I have never healed from either. Nobody is perfect Lord knows that I am far from that, so I do not expect anyone to be perfect, but when there is no respect; It's just some situations that you need to just let go. I will most definitely share my story in the days to come, but right now I am just not quite ready to speak on it, in great detail, because I am drained. These past few days I have had to repeat myself to my family and my kids, and I would just love to take some time to appreciate my decision and to mourn my relationships that I have put to rest. I don't regret it and I am being reassured by God every second of everyday that He has his arms wrapped around me and that I am most definitely walking in his guided steps. I don't feel any anger or hatred towards anyone that I have cut off, but I do feel that these people are not going to go with me on my next journey. This year I will be turning 50 years young. This year is the begging of the last days of my life. So I unapologetically will be as selfish as I wanna be!
Cheers to leaving all the toxic people where they at,
Crystal Caine
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